Thursday, August 15, 2013

Wisdom from Above

Who among you is wise and understanding?
Let him show by his good behavior his deeds in the gentleness of wisdom.
But if you have bitter jealousy and selfish ambition in your heart,
do not be arrogant and so lie against the truth.
 This wisdom is not that which comes down from above,
but is earthly, natural, demonic.
For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist,
there is disorder and every evil thing.
But the wisdom from above is first pure,
then peaceable, gentle, reasonable, full of mercy
and good fruits, unwavering, without hypocrisy.
And the seed whose fruit is righteousness
is sown in peace by those who make peace
James 3:13-18

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Taking Time

This transitional time has taken it's toll on me lately.

September 6,2013 will mark a full twelve months of displacement.

Living in a one room flat for 9 months then living in a 23 foot camper trailer from the 80's with 3 kids isn't what I would call having a home - just a place to live.

I've missed the spring season with my tulips, lilacs, daffies, hyacinths, irises and other spring flowers.

I've felt lonely without the warm feel of garden dirt under me with the sun shining down on me and watching my garden go from planted seeds to plants to harvesting the fruit of my labors to enjoy in the winter.

I've missed my rainy day crafting items as they are in storage 3 states away.

I've essentially had life on hold because I never know when we will actually make the final move out west.

Living in an "I don't know" world has been incredibly hard for this farmgirl.

I've become snippy, hurried, frustrated and essentially lonely despite having three kids and a husband plus being surrounded by other people.

I've had this great disconnect to the area I previously called my home. Stress was the main emotion.

Longing for the nightmare to end and the dream to continue, or rather just life to continue!

Then I had this knock on the door of life and God reminded me what was important.

It's not what I don't have anymore or what I don't have right know or what I want to have in the future.

                                                  It's what I have right now!

 I'm alive.
A husband.
Three healthy kids.
Hope for the future.

I've been missing out on so much by missing what I had and what I want to have that I couldn't enjoy the simple things.

The most meaningful things in life.

It's not about what you have, who you are or the idea/dream of what you want to be or what you want to have.

It's about what you  do with what you have right now.

Psalm 68:6 says

 "God makes a home for the lonely".

Psalm 68:19-20a says

 "Blessed be the Lord, who daily bears our burden,
The God who is our salvation. God is to us a God of deliverances.".

Those have been my passages of promise. God has everything under control, instead of being frustrated at my current state of displacement (a nice word for homeless) I can take this extra time to read extra books to listening ears, go on more walks, play more at the park and make more mudpies with my kids.

The time spent longing for things and days gone by only rob today of those precious moments and memories with those most dear to me!

Live in the present, savor the moment despite what you do or do not have because when you are called Home it's not about what you had that makes a difference it's who you were and what you did that people remember!

No more wishing, missing, rushing for this farmgirl!

Taking time to live in the Present,